our engagement day....

isnt she lovely??? thats the ring!! yes guys its my engagement ring!! my stinky whitie gave it to me the very first day we have met in person... May 20, 2006... around 6am when we got back to the hotel after i picked him up at the airport!!! as soon as we got his things settled, there!!!! my whitie, as impatient as he was when it comes to surprises!!! handed me this small box... and telling me... its been a long time that i have been wanting to give you this... you know that i have proposed a long time ago online...but to make that online proposal a reality and legal.... here's my love... its a 1.5 Karat Princess Cut 3 stoned diamond ring with baggets... exactly this picture on here... from KAY JEWELERS..... Kay always has this ad.... "Every Kiss Begins With Kay!!!" Indeed!!!! kiss it was.... and even more than that.... never imagined in my entire life that i would be receiving such a beautiful sweet lasting proof of proposal like this one! never in my life expected that id be falling inlove with the perfect man who would give me such importance, care, love and diamonds!! hahhahahaha... it is truly a girl's bestfriend!!! he gave me this small white box.. and opening the small white box comes this small black velvet box.... and opening this black velvet box comes this beautiful white gold diamond ring!!! olah!! surprise surprise!!! (baby, yes you asked me how many stones i want!!! but i never expected you'd make payments for something so precious as this one... im ok with just you here with me... but this is soooo beautiful, so unexpected.... thank you... YES BABE!!!!! id truly marry you with all of my heart and soul in any courthouse you choose!! - hahahahhahaha... yes its a courthouse.. because we are planning to renew vows in someplace romantic and where everyone can witness!)

the 21 days he spent in manila starting that day was all worth it!!! it was the beginning of something so precious.. so special... so fun... and so lasting... we never wanted to waste any of our time together getting around manila because we wanted to just have fun with each other, enjoying each other... just the two of us.... 21 days wasnt enough.... its not enough to spend time together as we miss each other sooooooo much, and we just wanted to hold and cuddle each other so tight... and never will let go.....

but ofcourse... it was just 21 days of being physically together... but its definitely not the end...

next plans..... wedding day!!!!!!

the Ups and Downs of my LongDistance Love Affair...

the ups and downs of having a long distance love affair...

butterflies in my stomach whenever i hear his name... the kilig factor of mobile alerts from yahoo messenger... the constant staring of my mobile fone screen waiting for his calls and texts... the pile of prepaid globe cards in my wallet... the bumpy red marks on my bum for long hours of chat in cafe's (before when i dont have smart bro at home yet... :))having signs and symptoms of carpal tunnel syndrome for long typing hours... the sweet lasting euphoria after long sessions of chats, reading looooong "novel" emails, opening adorable fun e-cards... the much awaited snail mails, cards, flowers, and packages even if you already know what's in it, still, it feels like you're going to be surprised with whatever is sent, just by knowing the mere fact that its from him :))...oh yeah and offline messages too.... never felt that the day starts right without it, he got me so used to it... so sweeet...

absence they said makes the heart grow wonder... LoL... yeah but there's also this saying that says it makes it grow fonder! hay naku! syempre, it goes fonder! the absence for me made me miss him more... its addictive... i just want him to be there whenever i crave for him... (as in crave... like craving for a good bar of candy!! its like i need my sugar rush!! hehehehehe) sometimes i even find myself staring at the yahoo screen, waiting for that sooo familiar sound - 'ding' whenever someone gets online...those bold letters in my contact list are under my watchlist and was sooo abused!... never a glimpse should i let that pass... it was crazy, never imagined it can be soooo sooooo addictive!! addictive, but ive only felt that for him... i hate people disturbing me whenever i talk to him... like every minute is so precious, para akong "gaga" di makausap pag sya na ka chat ko! sobra!

there was this time in our relationship when he's nowhere to be reached...a few months with just hi and hello's.... was busy at the hospital, he was busy with work... (til he explained things lately... the full story why he was out of post! hmp!) and then after a year of talking and "dating online" i said i wanted to let go na... coz i feel that he doesnt have time for me anymore... and that i have to move on.. ( ang lola mo nagdrama!! i cant just wait for him online all the time and all i see is his id in BOLD but not talking to me... and all the reasons blah blah blah...-->> which is later on in our relationship he made me understand...) then that time, that was around february 2006!!! he changed, like a 360 degree turn around! i cant believed it!... i was the one trying to run away now and he's the one chasing me... humaba ang hair ko!!hahahahaha... [so i guess guys sometimes need this one time big time knocked on their head to make them realized that they're about to lose something so special... hehehehehe] so going back, he gave me so much time, attention, longer emails, calls, voice chats, and all that you can think of! guess he loves me too :)) march of that year he started planning of coming over for our engagement! wow! yes!!!! finally he's coming over!!! (the detailed story on next blog regarding our first meeting in person... can feel butterflies again... kilig naman me..)

in short, we've fallen deeply inlove... we've wanted more than just chatmates or "online daters", and made the real dating a reality... from then on.... we were lovers... we were in a relationship... a relationship that me myself and him dont believe existed...but we are in it... and it's so real...

then i asked him why fly so far when he can just have an easy relationship back home...

and he said... "i never had a hard time being with someone back home, this one you've given me is different... and i wont fly half across the world just to have fun, have sex, or have a one heck of a good time, because im not rich to do all that, and i cant afford it... but ive fallen in love with you so much, that i can never think of myself being with anybody else... but you..." aaaaaaawwwwwe....shoot meeeeeeeeeee.... id be dropped dead by now! harharhar!!! was so high!!!! ooooh yeahh!!! hell yeah!!! higher than the feeling of passing the PT Board Exams last 2001... now i know how it feels like being a GURL... lol...of course im a girl, HAhAHA.... i mean a girly girl with the prince charming and all that stuff....

- - xoxo - -

May 20, 2006 Saturday morning - PAL Terminal 2!!! wow! he came just to give me this ring... a 1.5 karat princess cut 3 stoned with baggets KAY (every kiss begins with KAY!!! hahahaha so true!!) diamond ring!!! OH MY GOSH!!!!....

to be continued....

reminiscin'.... the first time we met...

going back to the days when i first met him... sigh... (february 2005)


i never expected that i will find this very loving, handsome, sweet, funny, responsible young man from yahoo chatroom!!! whoooaaa! yup you're right! there's this one lost among the mostly (not all... dont quote me...) perv tot tot.. crowd!why was i there in the first place??? there's what you call RocKy timeS in a relationship... mostly if you're dealing with something "long distance" as they call it... been with this guy (an indian and im a filipina) for more than 2 years...was separated by work... to make the long story short, it was a great love but faltered... so there i was, online waiting for my RockY bf to get on... time passed by and i was bored... ive never been to those chatrooms before, never really know how to used it, just remembered how my cousin said that you can find people to talk to in chatrooms...was bored and the kind of chikadora that i am, i got curious and started to figure out how can i find someone to talk to with sense... (its always easier for me to open up with someone i dont know... better that way, at least they wont judge you for who you are and what have you done in the past... they'd talk to you in a very objective manner... which is a good thing... ) ok... so there i was!!! my chatroom expedition! got to Kentucky chatroom... (dont ask me how i got there!) with the mouse clicking and pointing and clicking, there!!!! oooops!! a message popped out in my screen....

hi... howre you...
i said hello back...
and it all began...

it was light, fun, and very interesting conversation... he was bored at work... i was bored waiting for my ex... we became friends... we just had our exchanges of LOL's and LMAO... and click... it was movie in the making!!! yup friends!! we've chatted like crazy, we felt so at ease talking just like that and we felt like we have known each other for a long time.... after 3 months of chatting and texting, and take note.. no WEBCAMS, no VOICE... then guess who dropped the bomb?? (ofcourse.. the ex was DONE and over with!) then he asked.... " are we dating?!@!? " oooooooooooooooooooooh my... naloka ang lola mo!! i almost fell from my seat... and texted back.. " what do you think? " hahhahahaha :)) felt this connection between us... i have never expected that im going to fall under the category of "online daters", but yeah!! proud to say! i AM... lol... yes... we started dating, have fallen in love once again..... and then with the growing bills on cafe lounge chats... guess what happened when ive first seen him on cam after many months of correspondence... hahahahaha.. this time i fell hard on the floor... he is soooooooooooooooo CUTE, HandSOme... GUWAPO, Young with Beautiful BLUE EYED whitie... hahahhaha, yeah thats how i call him... my whitie... it was like WOW!! youre making my heart melt with tears... (Over Ha!!) But, yeah... ive fallen for someone sooooooo POGI without even knowing how POGI he really is looks wise...was like winning a one million lotto ticket...

online dating can be sooooooo hard... it begins with honesty and trust.. i have never really known this person, but ive been very honest with him from the very first time that we've chatted... i wasnt expecting anything or the same honesty in return, but it just came out naturally... if you are sincere with who you really are and what you say you are... it can be contagious... the other person will feel the same way, and treat you with the right attitude you deserve to be treated with...

this is just the beginning of our journey... more to come... many things that had happened... many things needed to put down into writing...

until then....

simple best things

Reminiscin'

some of the simple best things ive done in life...
itching, scratching...
giving my most sincere smile (even to strangers)...
receiving the sweetest sincere smile back (even from strangers)...
giving a warm tight embrace...
receiving the same warm tight embrace...
laughing my hearts out...
sitting quiet with friends...
receiving a compliment from a stranger, from friends unexpectedly...
giving compliments to strangers, friends...
giving voluntarily to the needy...
satisfying my craving...
eating a whole bar of chocolate...
eating in a big bowl of ice cream...
playing & laughin in the rain (imiss the most)...
tickling & being tickled...
sleeping...
kissing...
cuddling...
listening to reggae & dancing along...
dancing to oblivion...
singing like no one's around...

loving endlessly...

being loved back...

lying in a hammock under coco trees in the beach...
watching raindrops sitting beside a glass window with a cup of choco...
watching the sunset...
walking along the beach on a sunset, barefooted...
reading a good book...
praying solemnly, enriching my spirit...
pampering myself...

shopping, splurging like there's no tomorrow with friends...
travelling to some place new, exploring alone, being lost & asking directions (was funny)...
eating out with friends...
pigging out once in a while...
eating 2 family sized pan pizza with tintin til we throw up...
cooking, experimenting, baking, letting people judge em...
giving directions to lost strangers...
assisting an oldie crossing the street, getting down the jeep...
critisizing a friend knowing they wont mind, rather love u more...
drinking til morning, drinking without eating, til throwing up green weird stuffs, getting drunk and being cared for by friends around (funny) and getting scolded in the morning...
sleeping over to friends house...
sneaking out of the dorm to be out with friends...
watching & listening to live bands while out with friends...
going out of the country...
getting caught by police due to a kiss in cheek (funny) in an arab country (was the scariest of my life though!)...
being inlove...
takin a cold shower in one hot sweaty summer day...
eating green mangoes with spicy shrimp paste or spicy fish bagoong with vinegar under the mango tree...
minutes/hours after knowing that i passed the boards! (PT/RN)...
posing, smiling, just being silly in front of all kinds of camera's...
reminiscing...
more to come as i journey thru life...

my first entree....

" Books are judged by their covers... and now... by their BlOGGS!" it doesnt make sense.. lol.. let me take you for a ride instead...

my first entree... going on bare.. before you can create a blog... you have to have something full of sense in mind... before you can create an audience, you dont have to be extraordinary, but at least entertaining... before fellow bloggers can learn from you... you have to post blogs of real happenings... this isnt just A diary... its the persona in meee that most of the people around me doesnt know of... sharing wont necessarily mean that you'll get something out of me... but hoping at least, would help you in any possible way... the way its helping me... geeeeeeez... dying to get out of this skin... :)) to my baby... iloveyou so much... this is for you!!! to my friends! hoping to keep in touch with you all!!

enjoy my bloggs... like the way im enjoying yours!!

peace ;P